The sin of comparison is so damaging to the spirit. And the worst is I'm doing it to myself. No one is pressuring me to compare, to not be happy for those who are happy. Who knows, maybe I just have to give myself a good cry and will be well. Just getting this out on my online journal here already has me gasping for air above the water, and those first breaths are relieving. I have faith that everything will happen on it's own time. All the things I truly desire will come right when they need to. For now it's all about choice, and I choose to be happy - one step at a time.