while home for the holidays i was reminded of something that has been missing for a while.
for the five months i've been living out here in utah i have done a lot of sitting, watching tv, eating, and walking. all by myself.
and this is not like me.
i am an outgoing, bubbly, and confident person to be around. i'm the type of person who is not afraid to make a fool of herself, who does anything and everything for their friends, and likes to be the life of the party.
i don't know what happened between here and back home. i miss having friends. i miss being active. i miss being busy. i miss the old me.
i feel that for the past five months i have been playing it "safe". i have been playing the victim, like that one girl in high school we all knew too well who was too scared to show the true part of herself. and i don't want to be like that anymore. it's time to let this bird fly.
find myself, set her free.