that's what's funny about the Internet


hello friends. the past couple days have been very overwhelming to say the least. i know people don't typically air their dirty laundry online, but that's what's funny about the Internet. it's become this place where we showcase our lives, but only the good parts. we go online and read on blogs and on facebook and see how incredibly happy everyone is. but the truth of the matter is, everyone has their own "stuff" that they are dealing with. we can't all be perfectly content 24/7. i try to keep an upbeat persona most of the time, especially on this here bloggy. but lately i just feel like a lot of little things keep re-occurring which result in about 4 hours of restless sleep a night due to anxiety. one of which, and the most important, has been bills. i don't know what it is with my car payment lately. it might be because of the whole getting married and switching banks thing, but for the past two weeks my car company has charged me about 5x, resulting in a lot of bounced online checks and fines from the bank. and with all these other bills just around the corner and no job in site, i can't help but be incredibly overwhelmed. and since the hubby has no time for a job (with all his school, homework and internships) the pressure has all really been put on me. so for now i really just rely on a lot of praying, and just trying to be grateful for all the many things that i do have. i have a wonderful and supportive husband, a roof over my head, lots of cereal to eat, my friends and family, and all of you.
i'm sorry if when reading this i make any of you feel uncomfortable, because that was not my intent. i promise that for the rest of this week i'll have more uplifting things to talk about. but i just needed one day to vent, one day to be real. i just needed this day to hear the loving words from all of you, reassuring me that everything will be alright.

62 comments:

  1. But it has to be a mistake right?? Why would they charge you so many times?? I'm so sorry!! I hope things get better asap! Can I do anything for you?!

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  2. Don't apologize for venting. That's what your blog is for. The good, and the bad. And yes, everything will be alright. Just try and remain positive, and everything will fit perfectly into it's right place. Promise. I've always believed that 'a positive outlook on things will never let you down.' Let me know if there's anything I can do.

    p.s. smile :)

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  3. Aw hang in there girl. It's a season that will pass and you'll enter another season that will give you rest. You are doing good and keep such a good outlook on things.


    - Sarah
    http://agirlintransit.blogspot.com/

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  4. Is that Great Grandma Celestia's cabin? I miss that place. It smells SOOO good up there!

    Chin up - I KNOW things will work out. I just emailed my boss to see if there any any openings at the magazine.

    See you at Thanksgiving - yay!

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  5. dealing with banks and credit card companies is seriously the most awful thing. good luck with the job search! :)

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  6. It's wonderful that you are feeling thankful, things could always be worse right!? You are a sweet girl with good intentions, I'm sure you will find a job because lets get real... who wouldn't want to hire you!?? :-)

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  7. I hope things get better! And I totally understand the pressure you feel and I know that it is BEYOND stressful! I'll keep you in my prayers!! Good luck finding a job!

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  8. Sorry, I'm about to get preachy. But My favorite scripture of all time is...

    D&C 121 :7-9


    7 My son (daughter), peace be unto thy soul; thine adversity and thine afflictions shall be but a small moment;

    8 And then, if thou endure it well, God shall exalt thee on high; thou shalt triumph over all thy foes.

    9 Thy friends do stand by thee, and they shall hail thee again with warm hearts and friendly hands.

    Nothing last forever. God doesn't give us any trials that we can't handle or that don't make us stronger in some way, shape, or form. And remember, you have an amazing husband, and friends who will help you through all of your hard times. Keep praying girl (: it will all get better soon!

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  9. I hope it all works out for you soon. I just recently graduated and realizing how much more difficult it is now trying to maintain a healthy budget and sanity.

    -Ly

    http://www.lyzhang.com

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  10. I've so been there (just last week, actually!). And it will all be ok! And venting is good for the soul. Or at least, your sanity.

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  11. you can do it! take naps and drink green tea. and praying lots is great too. good times will come!

    www.summersetsin.blogspot.com

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  12. So sorry you are stressed :( Why is the bank being so lame?

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  13. Everything is going to be alright! I honestly believe these kind of blog posts are the most meaningul, because they are so real. Who isn't struggling with bills and jobs in this economy?

    It may sound corny, but whenever I feel down about my current state of affairs, I listen to Keith Urban's "Better Life" (clearly, I love Keith Urban!). But it always gets me upbeat and positive, and the words are perfect for times like these.

    Keep your head up and to quote the song "paradise is coming!"
    xo Steph

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  14. Banks are so lame! I know how you feel, my husband is in Law School and I STILL haven't found a job yet either. its so stressful.

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  15. Wow I'm so sorry to hear about the charges...that really is terrible. I hope things get worked out for you guys. But i really feel like we're living the same life. With the hubbys goin to school and tryin to find a job. I too am still jobless and searching continues. Your post honestly made me feel better (don't take that bad) but i feel like i'm not alone, trying to keep the upbeat smiling face sometimes get hard to do. So i'm so glad i have found your blog. We have so many things in common i feel like we'd be best friends :)

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  16. I love how real this post is. I go on all these blogs and it's always so la la happy, when I truly know, those other people have to be having problems like me and you. There is a real life out there, and it's all mostly bills, why do we have sooo many of them?! It's exhausting.. but you know girl, this is just a ruff patch.
    Please just know that it is ruff, and you will get through it! You just have to think positive!

    Xoxo

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  17. girl, i feel you on the anxiety and sleepless nights. we've had a lot of complications in life lately, but each time something unfortunate happens, something good usually happens shortly after. i try to focus on the good stuff and pray that the bad stuff will eventually come to an end. i know it won't, but a girl can dream right? here's hoping your luck turns around sooner than later!

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  18. I do know exactly how you feel.
    So many young people all over the world are experiencing the same thing right now.
    A year ago I felt completely overwhelmed with my job situation and study loans to pay back etc.
    The best thing to do is to keep calm, do some yoga, do pray.
    When you are calm again and not anxious, start planning and finding a job, it will happen. The good is just around the corner.
    Sending hugs and superpower to you,lady!

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  19. Don't you fret about making anyone feel uncomfortable--we have ALL been there! Just keep praying and staying positive like you are, and the exact job you need WILL come!!

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  20. my love!
    you created this blog to share your life
    with your readers .. to put the good and the bad
    down in words and pictures.

    I put my heart out on my post
    on Friday. I coulnt take it anymore.

    We all have a day like that
    and it feels great when you have
    wonderful people reading and giving
    you positive feedback.

    Makes you smile at the end doesnt it?


    SMILE GORGEOUS!





    xoxo
    www.onlyaflightaway.blogspot.com

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  21. Ah, lady...things will turn around for you in time...I know it never seems soon enough but things always work out when they are meant to. My fiancé and I went through an incredibly tough financial time - about this tme, exactly a year ago. He is in real estate and was dealing with an extremely dry market. Anyhow, it seemed unbearable at the time. We are now in a much better place and realize how much that tough time in our lives taught us. We now realize the importance of doing what it takes to prepare ourselves for the unknown. I applause your bravery in sharing this real life moment with us. That is one of the best parts of this blogging world...it is like one big awesome circle of friends...and we are always here to listen :) xoxoxo brynn

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  22. Hello, love. I don't believe we have met but I just wanted to say that I know how you feel. I think almost everyone can relate to this post in some way. Just know that everything will work out and you have a lot of people thinking about you and hoping for the best!

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  23. You have a right to not be happy. It's OK to let go and even cry at times. I read once that you cry not because you are weak but because you've been strong too long. So with that said, hope everything gets fixed and don't worry we all go though thick periods and I'm sure many are still standing by your side, even your bloggy friends :)

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  24. Not uncomfortable at all! That is just life speaking...hope things look up (it will) and just keep positive!
    xx

    Hot Pink Day
    Shop Blue Vanilla

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  25. Defainetly look into the car bill! It's okay to vent, it's healthy to let it out and afer you do, you feel so much better :) GOd will make things work themselves out :) it won't always be like this:)

    *Sam

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  26. I appreciate this post! Bills are frustrating and I frequently get stressed over where our money is going. It's hard living on a fixed income! Esp since my husband doesn't have time for a job either while he's finishing up law school.

    I struggle with how much of "me" to put on my blog, too. I want to keep it positive and also don't want to over share, but I want to keep things real. So thank you for this post!

    ~ Angela
    grahamandangela.blogspot.com

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  27. well at least you have plenty of cereal. :) the best words of wisdom i ever got were "money comes, and goes." simple, but so true.

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  28. I'm so sorry! Life sure has a way to knock ya around. But thank you for keeping it real. It's very refreshing! Best of luck to you and your hubby.

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  29. oh honey, these things suck, big time. i know i've been there once or twice. in fact, once due to a bank error, the car company claimed they hadn't received our payment (they did) & came out & booted our car. it was horrible & embarrassing & we had to pay double to get it taken off. it took four long months to get that money back & in the meantime, all the other bills got behind because of it.

    so, from a girl whose been there... this too shall pass. everything will get worked out & it will all be okay.

    xo, allie

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  30. Thanks for your honesty...so many of us are facing similar issues but may not talk about it. i am sure God has a bigger plan for you and hubby! keep each other close! and we are always here so vent away and get the support you need...virtual hugs!

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  31. girlfriend, write about whatever you need to write about. we like the real you! and we like to lift you up :)

    now, to fix this problem: i'm sure you can talk to your bank and see what the mix up is about? and just apply everywhere you can. any place would be lucky to have you :) and what about your sponsorships? up your prices by $5 or something maybe? any little bit helps.

    i hope your week gets better, but feel free to vent all you want :) oh, and also, you should add your e-mail address to your blogger profile so that when you comment on my [or anyone's] blog, we can respond directly :)

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  32. I think it's ok to write about the good and the bad that's going on in your life. It helps your readers relate and know that you are "real". I hope things start looking up for you, and I know things will turn out ok.

    xo Ashley

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  33. so sorry! things always have a way of getting better!

    oh by the way i LOVE your blog!!

    http://juliestandleyphotography.blogspot.com/

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  34. UMMMM... I think I just fell in love with you all over again, girlie!!! xoxoxoxo You're the best!

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  35. I love that you got personal and said what was on your heart! Now I can say a little prayer for you....right.....now! (praying). It'll all work out hun!

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  36. don't know if someone else mentioned it, but please do visit your bank and find what's going on. they often make mistakes. or at the very least you might be able to rearrange a better plan.
    just saying :)

    financial woes are the hardest for some reason. my own marriage suffered because of them. i finally said enough - love is first.

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  37. Don't apologize for anything, let yourself and make a one/two days break! Try to solve that with the banks! U already know u have our full support, in this virtual world!:)
    kisses
    Jelena (glamfabchameleon.blogspot.com)

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  38. absolutely nothing about this post made me uncomfortable. I think it is so important to be honest! The blog world has enough sunshine, enough rainbows. Talking openly about your problems means you'll receive all the support you could ever ask for here.

    <3 Daryl
    Roots, Wings, and Other Things.

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  39. Hunni, I'm sure everything will work out fine, you have the right to vent as much as you want, when you want. :) It's your blog! :)

    & of course, you have all of the blog's world support. :D When ever you need it xx

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  40. Hi hun! This is the first post i'm reading on your blog, and instantly i know what you are talking about! we as humans cant be happy go lucky 24/7, it's impossible! do not worry, everything will work out for you!!! just be strong, you can do it! :) think: positive outcomes only! :)))
    XOXO Kasia
    http://misskasia.blogspot.com

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  42. dont feel bad for being real. ever. everything isn't gumdrop and sprinkles for anyone. we are all blessed but all living life and life has real things. i totally understand how you feel. i had the same thing happening lately, plus alot of "surprise" bills including a two year old car tax collection that came totally out of no where. so you are not alone my love. if i was near you i'd hug you and then we'd go out and get some frozen yogurt or something and laugh at it all ;) xoxo

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  43. Grrr... that is frustrating for sure. Hope you can get things sorted out soon so you can get some rest!

    xo L.

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  44. I'm pretty much in the same boat with you...I honestly feel the same way right about now. What stresses me out the most is paying for school. I hope things start to get better for you and me as well :)

    xo erica

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  45. I know all about this kind of thing. I always feel behind in our bills and it's always a game of catch up and praying that we don't overdraft. I'm sorry you're having such a rough time. I hope you can find a job soon! All you can do is your best so don't stress too much if you're trying your best! Hang in there!

    Bekah
    If Work Permits

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  46. What a great post!

    I stumbled upon your blog and thought I would say hello! I just started up a new blog that is all about COLOR.

    Come on over and become a follower to enter the upcoming giveaways!

    xoxox
    Aarean

    http://colorissue.blogspot.com/

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  47. Aww sorry to hear about all of this. This was actually a light hearted way you expressed your stress, so no worries! The job will come in the perfect timing!

    xoxo
    http://www.thewrittenrunway.com

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  48. there are different kind of blogs, and do you know what are the best ones for me? the ones that are personal, intimate, true, authentic. Of course one sorta makes up a 'profile', it's a way to make it easier for us to post and for readers to understand, but i think we sometime might get bored of all happy fashion blogs, just as people got bored before in the 90s or the 2000s. I think it's great to show the 'dark' side and share with others if you feel like it, in fact this makes me feel more empathetic or whaterver that is said.

    Things are gonna get better, because you are positive and thankful, and whatever matters we can lear from every situation in our lives, so may be this is a lesson, let's take it like that. I'm going through a weird moment in my job too, trying to re-focus my life, so maybe it's your time to re-think about your life too and go for whatever is that you want, it's all out there! Plus, i think it'd be awesome to be a housewive, but where i live it's kinda impossible for one to sustain a family, but in the other hand, having to be responsible to provide your home makes you grow up a whole lot, i promise!! :D

    Hope it all goes well!

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  49. keep your chin up, my dear! things will get better. make some time to take some deep breaths and i promise you'll feel better.

    also, i love blogs that share some of the not-so-good things going on. it's honest and in that way, beautiful. no one's life is perfect!

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  50. bills are a pain. i understand completely. stay positive :) things WILL get better and easier with time.

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  51. i love how open and honest you are! i think it's important to show the hard times as well as the good to help people get a real picture of how life is. and this post i'm sure sums up so many people's live and they can relate to it so well. i know i can!! bills and money suck. i am so so sorry that you have to deal with this and be so stressed. my heart goes out to you completely for your struggles. i hope everything is okay. we will be praying for you! please please let me know if you need anything (we are in Provo too so please let me know!!)

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  52. Freakin' banks! Honestly! They mess up and then it becomes our fault... :( I hope they get everything fixed for you asap!
    And don't even think of apologizing to us! We're here for you through your happy times as well as your frustrating times! Like you said, we ALL have these days, so don't feel bad!
    And I'm pretty dang positive that this is not the only day you've been real wish us :) I believe that you are "real" with each and every post! That's why I love your blog!

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  53. tanya! I really appreciated this post. I think its so good to vent... that's what blogs are for, right? Even though I dont have to worry about bills yet, I still get caught up in the little things in life that make me stressed; but im beginning to realize that theres a bigger goal to concentrate on, like an eternal partner or returning to Heavenly Father. haha im not sure if that makes sense... but anyways, thanks again for this post!

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  54. bills are miserable. they make me really anxious as well. i feel sick when they land in the mailbox. get out of my mailbox!

    i think being honest on your blog is perfectly great.. everyone has issues and i think a lot of people can relate to this one. it's comforting to hear encouraging words from other people, too :)

    i hope you find a job that you love that will banish the bills. keep looking.. there's one out there for you. i KNOW it's not easy.. especially now. but you can do it!

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  55. beautiful blog! I love your instagrams... i might have to find you on there;)) and this post was so refreshing, honesty, and a truth that has nothing to do with who & what you're wearing. bravo.

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  56. I admire you for writing this post!

    I've written quite a few myself and they are very cathartic, don't you think? :) I think it's easy to use a happy-go-lucky persona on our blogs, but it's way more refreshing to reveal our true feelings.

    Life can be tricky at times, but I hope things get a little easier for you soon! I understand your predicament more than I wish I did...but like you, I am grateful for my family and friends, my wonderful home, my sweet cats and all the food and necessities that I need.

    Just keep plugging away and you'll get through this tough time!

    Jenn

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  57. I had to comment. I understand completely how you are feeling and reading your post almost made me cry. I am going through the same thing right now and it is extremely challenging and frustrating. My husband is in school and I am in search for a job/starting a photography business. The sleepiness nights are all too familiar to me. I know everything will work out but sometimes it is hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Good luck with everything and remember, eventually everything will turn out okay!

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  58. Hey Love.
    I totally hear you. Money is such a tricky thing. I just had to transfer funds from our tiny precious savings to pay bills that won't hold til payday. oy, how i hate that.
    hang on tight to your hubby and know that together with the help of Jesus, you WILL survive!
    xoxo

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  59. You know, well done for being so brave! Life is hard sometimes, it's not always fairy tales and romance. It's ok to talk about hard times every once in a while!

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